I was talking with a friend tonight and we were talking about that feeling of Deja Vu, where you feel like you have done something before. I get it pretty often. It is always like a brilliant flash to me, a WOW moment where I totally feel like I have experienced this moment before. For some reason it really comforts me, like I must be on the right path. As I was explaining this to a friend I realized what I really meant. It is as if my whole life has already been written by God, and apparently I have flipped ahead on some of the pages. So that when I actually get to that page, I know I am still in the right book. Not that I don't have choices, just that God already knows what choices I will make. It means that nothing in life is a mistake, because it is as it was meant to be.
So, does anyone else experience deja vu, and if you do, what do you think about it?
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Friday, July 8, 2011
hi again
Sorry, I have been dealing with other things and haven't been out here. It has been 2 months now that I have been home with E, and things are going much better than I had hoped. I haven't lost my patience, or felt overwhelmed, or really experienced any depression for the past 2 months. Yay!
E is walking now! She started with just a couple of steps, then one day she made it like 5-6 steps, and the day after that, she was everywhere! She continues to be the happiest kid around, smiling and giggling most of the time. Even when she is cranky, it is in short little bursts between smiling and laughing.
We are having some trouble with our beagle, Charlie, though. He has had problems with his back now and then, and last week he couldn't finish the walk he was on with my husband and the baby. G had to call his dad to pick up Charlie, since I wasn't home and he couldn't exactly carry a 30 lb dog while pushing the stroller. He is better now, but he has also peed in the house twice in the past week, which is very unusual for him. The first time was when I was out of town. He was home alone all day, then when G came home from work, he was home for a couple of hours but then went out for the rest of the night. Charlie peed on G's shoes. I thought he was punishing G for leaving him alone.
Yesterday, E was annoying Charlie again. She just wants to be near him and it bugs him to no end. He growls and grumbles and moves from one hiding spot to the next, but she always follows him. I am working on this with her, but it is a struggle. So, I finally let Charlie out of the living room and send him to his bed upstairs. He usually loves it up there, he can look out the window over the side yard and curl up in his comforter. Well, I don't know if he was showing his annoyance at E or what, but when I took her up to bed a little while later, he had peed in her room. Yuck!
I think it is just his way of expressing his jealousy, but yesterday someone mentioned Cushing's Disease to me, so now I am worried about that. He was just at the vet and they said he was fine, but I'm sure G didn't mention him peeing in the house. He does have to go back for another shot in 2 weeks, so I'll talk to them about it then. I hope he is ok. We have only had him for a little over 2 years, but it will break my heart when something happens to him.
E is walking now! She started with just a couple of steps, then one day she made it like 5-6 steps, and the day after that, she was everywhere! She continues to be the happiest kid around, smiling and giggling most of the time. Even when she is cranky, it is in short little bursts between smiling and laughing.
We are having some trouble with our beagle, Charlie, though. He has had problems with his back now and then, and last week he couldn't finish the walk he was on with my husband and the baby. G had to call his dad to pick up Charlie, since I wasn't home and he couldn't exactly carry a 30 lb dog while pushing the stroller. He is better now, but he has also peed in the house twice in the past week, which is very unusual for him. The first time was when I was out of town. He was home alone all day, then when G came home from work, he was home for a couple of hours but then went out for the rest of the night. Charlie peed on G's shoes. I thought he was punishing G for leaving him alone.
Yesterday, E was annoying Charlie again. She just wants to be near him and it bugs him to no end. He growls and grumbles and moves from one hiding spot to the next, but she always follows him. I am working on this with her, but it is a struggle. So, I finally let Charlie out of the living room and send him to his bed upstairs. He usually loves it up there, he can look out the window over the side yard and curl up in his comforter. Well, I don't know if he was showing his annoyance at E or what, but when I took her up to bed a little while later, he had peed in her room. Yuck!
I think it is just his way of expressing his jealousy, but yesterday someone mentioned Cushing's Disease to me, so now I am worried about that. He was just at the vet and they said he was fine, but I'm sure G didn't mention him peeing in the house. He does have to go back for another shot in 2 weeks, so I'll talk to them about it then. I hope he is ok. We have only had him for a little over 2 years, but it will break my heart when something happens to him.
Monday, June 13, 2011
when all else fails...
I really want to sew. I have this image of myself as a 1950's housewife, canning vegetables out of my own garden, cooking, cleaning, and sewing and crafting in my spare time. I don't actually know how to do any of these things, really. But I want to. I have a sewing machine, and I have made a couple of things. My husband helped me make padded cornice boards for our windows, and my mom helped me make curtains, but I haven't done a whole lot of stuff on my own. Right now, I am working on some cloth napkins (part of my 50's housewife ideal, no more paper napkins!). I think they will turn out ok, but they are just square pieces of fabric, so nothing to get too excited about.
Anyway, today, I was looking for the manual for my sewing machine. I didn't find it, but I did find an instructional DVD that I never watched. So, I watched it. And, wow, it contains all sorts of information that would have been nice to know. So, now I feel like an idiot, because I have had this machine for like 3 years and never really knew anything about it. All because I never watched the instructions. You'd think I was a man!
Anyway, today, I was looking for the manual for my sewing machine. I didn't find it, but I did find an instructional DVD that I never watched. So, I watched it. And, wow, it contains all sorts of information that would have been nice to know. So, now I feel like an idiot, because I have had this machine for like 3 years and never really knew anything about it. All because I never watched the instructions. You'd think I was a man!
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
flowers!
We have some peonie plants in our front yard. They have been there forever, and my dear husband always just mows over them. So, a few years ago when we were finally landscaping the front of the house, to save money I dug up some of those plants and moved them into the area directly in front of the house. I didn't know if they would survive, but thought I would give it a try. I also dug up this enormous hosta plant behind the garage and split it into about 10 different plants to move up front. Lots of work, but saved us a lot of money!
Well, the peonies are so big they are laying on their side. I should have gotten out there with some garden fencing or something to prop them up, but I didn't. But, we have tons of huge flowers! 3 of the four plants have white blooms, and the last one has a beautiful pink. I was thinking about digging them up and replacing them this year, but this is the most flowers we have ever had. What a great little treat. I am going to prune some off and put them in a vase in the house, so I can enjoy them as long as possible.
Another wonderful treat? My husband is on midnights this week (which is kind of a bummer), but means he is home with us during the day. So we had a nice breakfast together this morning (french toast, yumm!), then a trip to Target. We need to put up some room darkening curtains in the bedroom so he can sleep during the day. Found some that are supposed to block 99% of the light and be super energy efficient for only $12.99 a panel. Yay! G is hanging up the curtain rod right now, can't wait to see them up.
Well, the peonies are so big they are laying on their side. I should have gotten out there with some garden fencing or something to prop them up, but I didn't. But, we have tons of huge flowers! 3 of the four plants have white blooms, and the last one has a beautiful pink. I was thinking about digging them up and replacing them this year, but this is the most flowers we have ever had. What a great little treat. I am going to prune some off and put them in a vase in the house, so I can enjoy them as long as possible.
Another wonderful treat? My husband is on midnights this week (which is kind of a bummer), but means he is home with us during the day. So we had a nice breakfast together this morning (french toast, yumm!), then a trip to Target. We need to put up some room darkening curtains in the bedroom so he can sleep during the day. Found some that are supposed to block 99% of the light and be super energy efficient for only $12.99 a panel. Yay! G is hanging up the curtain rod right now, can't wait to see them up.
Monday, June 6, 2011
hot hot hot
The heat and humidity have come to Wisconsin! I cranked up the AC in our upstairs so E could nap, it was so freaking hot up there. Unfortunately, we don't have central air, so just a window unit. Oh well. She is naked except for a diaper. And, she got a bath before nap, because she had her first taste of Chef Boyardee today and holy cow, was she a mess.
Anyway, I want to take a minute to talk about my husband. G and I have been together for almost 6 years, married for 3. He is the most amazing, thoughtful, loving, funny, wonderful husband ever. When he was laid off, he took care of the house, the cleaning, cooking, shopping, laundry, and when the baby came, he took care of her, too.
He thinks nothing of feeding her, changing her, bathing her, whatever. We are a team, and he has always been a wonderful daddy. When she was born, I asked him if he was disappointed not to have a son. He said it was like the difference between winning a million dollars or winning a million and one dollars. And she is very much a daddy's girl. I love to see them together, he can make her giggle like crazy.
I'm so thankful that he is back to work and now letting me stay home with her. I was so worried he would start to resent me for being home, but as long as we can afford it I think we are both enjoying it so much. And, he is encouragine me to find my dream. I've thought about going to culinary school, or opening a bakery, or getting a lunch truck. Something in food service, probably. And he is all for it. How lucky I am to have a husband that loves and supports me.
Anyway, I want to take a minute to talk about my husband. G and I have been together for almost 6 years, married for 3. He is the most amazing, thoughtful, loving, funny, wonderful husband ever. When he was laid off, he took care of the house, the cleaning, cooking, shopping, laundry, and when the baby came, he took care of her, too.
He thinks nothing of feeding her, changing her, bathing her, whatever. We are a team, and he has always been a wonderful daddy. When she was born, I asked him if he was disappointed not to have a son. He said it was like the difference between winning a million dollars or winning a million and one dollars. And she is very much a daddy's girl. I love to see them together, he can make her giggle like crazy.
I'm so thankful that he is back to work and now letting me stay home with her. I was so worried he would start to resent me for being home, but as long as we can afford it I think we are both enjoying it so much. And, he is encouragine me to find my dream. I've thought about going to culinary school, or opening a bakery, or getting a lunch truck. Something in food service, probably. And he is all for it. How lucky I am to have a husband that loves and supports me.
Friday, June 3, 2011
home sweet home
Back from our little visit to the grandparents. It was nice, but glad to be back in my own bed. The first night, the power went out, so no night light. My little girl tends to toss and turn a lot, and apparently wakes up a lot at night. Since she was in her pack & play in a strange location, everytime she woke up in the dark she got scared and started crying. Neither of us got a lot of sleep that night. The 2nd night she slept through, but the TV in the living room kept me up for a long time. I finally got up (I had not wanted to get up, risking waking E up) to use the bathroom and found my dad sound asleep in the recliner, with the TV blaring. Turned down the volume and left him there. Got a little sleep that night, but E was up at 5 am.
Thank goodness we both slept well at home last night. She was up at 7 today, but down again by 9:30. Now at 11:40 she is just waking up. I better go get her and get some lunch ready. My schedule is all wonky now! Oh well...more later.
Thank goodness we both slept well at home last night. She was up at 7 today, but down again by 9:30. Now at 11:40 she is just waking up. I better go get her and get some lunch ready. My schedule is all wonky now! Oh well...more later.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
visiting the grandparents
Well, E and I are off to visit the grandparents for a couple of days. One of the perks of being unemployed is that I can go visiting during the week while my husband works. I will miss him, of course. So, stay tuned for an update sometime after Thursday.
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